12.01pm.
‘Swing’ – Japan
2 be or not 2 be? That is the question! Whether ‘tis nobler… Urm. Sorrrreeee!
2 cut or not 2 cut? Should I have my hair cut today? Or not?
Money! Think money, Wanky Winterfood. If you have your hair cut today, will you have enough money for next Friday’s gig?
Indecision…
Shate! This Japan record, my ‘Visions of China’ 12-inch, which is on now, is fucking scratched! BABBER smeared q. v. grandly all o’er your buttocks!
SPLASH! Gulp!
Later:
I’ve thought a lot about my ‘leaving’ Alison to be with Jen. I still feel a great deal of affection for Alison and wish I hadn’t hurt her so much. She’s taken it so well, too. But look at me now. I am so glad I’m with Jen, but I have such a pessimistic vision of our future as lovers.
Later:
The prospect of living in a dying world
Sends shivers through my bones, to my heart
Tearing up wisps of this tangled web
How can we continue? Oh, no one knows!
People don’t care in this dying world
And time alone cannot heal our wounds
But I told her I loved her just weeks ago
She says I tricked her, but I don’t know!
Emotions disturb my heart
And feelings have fooled my brain
Pushing lovers apart
Only I could give such pain
I loved her and I lied to her
One call was what remained
She wants to hate and kill me
But can’t, she should try again
And again and again (to fade)…
Love cannot last in a changing world
Because emotions change with time
My phantom-black spirit ate out her heart
Now I have my life and she has hers
Later:
Alison, believe it or not, exchanging lovers has been a hardship. My crying was genuine, too. I had a chance and they all said ‘Take it!’ But my mind fought my heart to keep on loving you! Now, as the world dies a little around me, I’m wondering if this new love can carry on? My senses are shattered and reeling! I feel like all I can do is run and keep on running…
I threw you out like a bundle of memories. I watched carrion birds tear at your heart. But you should know that exchanging one girl for another might just have destroyed my soul.
Oh, why don’t you love me? I used to think you’d care! Oh, tell me you’ll love me! Don’t leave me here!
Later:
Somewhere under this rainbow, skies are black!
This Romeo lies dead, killed by Cupid’s warhead (lovehead?). The impact has blown me away. My own lust set out to destroy me in another of love’s stupid games…
Later:
‘Hang Ten!’ – The Soup Dragons
Well, that was earlier! I suppose you want to know what else happened, eh?
Well, bollocks to you!
‘Aw, don’t panic,’ said Ritcherd.
Well, I went to Wisbech today and, no, I didn’t get my hair cut, but I still spent a bloody lot of money! I went to the antique shop and bought a small brooch of a lizard and a necklace with a skull on it – a ‘snip’ at a ‘quid’ for the two!
In Andrew’s, I actually started talking to that girl I am fond of; the one who was at Hamlet the other night; small world, innit?
Tonight, I wrote a song called ‘An Apologetic Forecast’. It sits alongside the other songs I’ve written in 1986, including: ‘Radio Tokyo’, ‘Hitting That Low’, ‘New York Adventure’ and ‘Incestuous Paradox’. They’re not very good, but if I keep trying, I’m sure I’ll get better at it…
I am staying at Freddie’s mum’s tonite and have rung Jen to see how things have been at home with her mum and stuff. She said there have been ‘happenings’, but she could not elaborate over the phone. I hope she’s okay.
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NEXT TIME: ‘So many dreams…’
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